Somewhere in-between

somewhere along the way I dreamed us all up. Between the childhood songs and nightmares under the bed, on the bed I dreamed it all up. Each word had a note of music and I wanted to fill the world with as much song as I could. But they're not my songs to sing.

somewhere between the car rides with friends with me belting at the top of my lungs, them saying "who sings that song? let's keep it that way" and your voice coming out of the speakers. Somewhere there we found life, created life.

somewhere between the lies and lines we told each other. Somewhere between the truths and memories that seemed to change depending on who you asked.

I created it all. and now all I can think is I need a sleeping pill to help me close my eyes again. See I found a new addiction, and a new repulsion. Born between the nausea and your voice. We created. and the lines fall of my fingers until I can't seem to find enough blank space to fill. Enough ink in pens to bleed out those things we created. Somewhere between naps and insomnia.

so all I can think is how much I want a sleeping pill to help me close my eyes. Tomorrow came and I can't think any kind of straight. Your words falling through me like some bad joke that i'm the butt of. But I listen. am I listening?

somewhere between becoming addicted to what we created I stopped breathing. Take you in, life goes out. take you in, life goes out. extinguished like flames without oxygen somehwere, somewhere along the way I stopped giving stopped living stopped believing life could be anything but what you've made of me.

is this addiction or depression? caused by you and solved by you. See how quickly you erase me? see how quickly you create me? This is only a space in between but this is where it all takes place. somewhere between life and death we choose who we are and have to live with that decision. somewhere between life and death.