Today I want to delete it all and start over. If only it were that easy. I have a friend who changes her phone frequently and i wonder if it's because she wants to let go of everything over and over again. How cleansing that is. If I don't have your number, I can't ever contact you.

I've slept too long today. Didn't do any of the things I said I would. And days will turn to weeks and weeks will turn to months. I'll be right back where I started. I wish I didn't need sleep. All nighter tonight, like in the olden days.

To get over someone, get under someone else. Years later when we look back on this we'll say, We were always better friends than lovers, and we will be. Better friends than lovers, just need to let go of the desire for validation. I need to find ways to validate myself.