I won't say: this is not a good time.  Come back in 4 weeks. Or don't come back at all.  It's not worth it.  It being me.
I did the sleeping
I did the exercise
I did the food
I did the people
And none of it was enough to stop wanting to die. So I am going back to bed. Only for a bit. And i will do the exercise and i will do the food and i will do the people. And tomorrow will be better. And maybe it's almost over. But i won't know if i give up.