Sometimes I have a bad dream.  And in the morning I find i can't leave my room until the apartment is empty. I'll sit there rocking back and forth because I have to pee so badly,  but I can hear signs of life outside my door.

And i get scared. And I'm a child watching nazi movies to get tips on hiding.

I don't know why i do this. This is my home.  I am safe. Nobody is going to hurt me here. I don't have to hide anymore.  I never have to hide again.  Just go fucking pee!