About Me

Queer, Latina, bi cultural, Female, writer, poet, wise- -and these are just the things about me I cannot control.

Saturday, January 11, 2020

One day more

Dear heart.  Stop it.  Our don't.  Remind me.  I am alive. This is what it is to be alive.  Pain. And ache. And guilt.  And sorrow. Every beat. Like breathing is a conscious thing and if I don't think about it,  I can't.

I miss.  And miss. And miss. And miss.

Can't seem to stay in this moment.

This week won't be like last week. I won't be able to write as much as I want. Or sleep as much as I want. Or move as much as I want.

All I can do is make it through today. And what a good thing to measure time in days. Actions. A list to check off and once it's all checked off,  I can go.  Disappear. Hide. Fade. Die. Make a list. Check it off. Die.

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