What a curious thing. When she takes a break.  When she leaves.

I laughed at work today. I can't remember the last time I laughed. It was a real belly laugh.

Nothing different has happened. There was no revelation or affection or attention today that I hadn't had before. Everyone is still gone today. I am still alone and unlovable today. I am still terrible at my job today. Deadline still looms over my head- just not as heavy. Like I can breathe without having to think about it. I can listen to music and not cry.

Is a good day.