Feeling things is hard. I get it, wanting to disappear into a fog of the immediacy

Last night I felt so full of possibility. Like my skin was vibrating with all the possible things it could do.

Then there was the giggle loop over and over again. It was like being above the line to the extreme.

Mostly I wanted to sleep. Mostly what  my body wanted was to be quiet and calm and sleep for a very long time.

And I did. I slept all day and went to therapy and then slept the rest of the day. Finally woke up a couple hours ago.

I'm going back to bed. I don't feel well. not well at all.